No one tells you early on in sobriety how difficult each day can still be a year and a half later. It’s not like everything is fixed when you quit drinking or doing drugs or when you stop shopping/over spending or binge eating or being a workaholic or co-dependent. I believe Recovery is its own entity beyond drugs and alcohol and even though you have kicked your negative vices to the curb, you still have to get real, dig deep, and feel. Sitting back and watching and knowing